Top 10 Things That Irritate Me
10. Bad Drivers--The ones who just can't wait til you pass to turn in front of you
9. Men who have to touch themselves--are they afraid it's all going to fall off?
8. Parents who allow their kids to have mohawks or colored hair--especially at 3 years old
7. Young people who have turned gothic-- someone somewhere told them chains, tattoos and everything pierced was a good idea. After awhile, all that blackness brings a person down.
6. Those Baggy Britches--what is the purpose? Is it to show everyone your underwear? People that do this also wear chains and have to reach way down to their ankles to get to their wallet. Believe me, it's no fashion statement.
5. Walmart--plain evilness. It's all there is in this town where I live...and they know it.
4. Screaming Spoiled Kids--I've been here before and I hate being that parent. I would drop everything and leave when Brittany would try that. It should not be tolerated...amazing what happens when you take control.
3. Hypocrisy--Say what you mean and mean what you say
2. Men who feel they have to control women---get a grip
1. THE GOVERNMENT--everything about it....we are all mushrooms. To quote a song, "they feed us bull and keep us in the blind..." Thank you Travis Tritt. Anyone reading this blog should watch the documentary "WHY WE FIGHT". It is the best movie ever made, though will most likely never win an oscar.
QUESTION EVERYTHING.
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Never Ending Circle
Well...here I am at yet another crossroads in my life. Just when you think things are calm and you can sit back and enjoy it...here it comes.
Brittany was coming for a visit and I was preparing for this week of bittersweet happenings. As she saved her money, she was excited. This being said however, Brittany's future is questionable. Her life is out of control. This is what I was so scared of and now it is coming to light. Brittany has made life hell for her foster family and now they truly see what I was talking about. Brittany does not want to talk to anyone. Instead, everyone is walking on eggshells wondering if she will blow like Mt Saint Helens. She needs help getting her plane ticket and she is burning her bridges and refuses to sit down and talk to anyone. She told me, "I don't like to talk to people." I told her that people are everywhere and she is going to have to learn to talk, bite the bullet and put herself out there. She just refuses.
I spoke with the foster mother yesterday and I feel her pain because I was there 6 years ago. Now she has asked me to find a place for Brittany to go as she will be 18 next month and she feels Brittany will take off once she knows she can and the guardianship is over. I am not sure this will happen, but I am working on some things here. Since Brittany has invited herself to just come back to live with me, I am in the process of finding a placement for her...group home or some transitional placement where she can learn daily skills. This is what I do for a living, so it is good I have people to talk to and some connections. Knowing this is what has to happen for her to survive just breaks my heart. She needs some intervention and it's up to me to do something now.
How ironic is my life...here it is back to me where it started. Life will never be the same again.
Peace for all of us
Brittany was coming for a visit and I was preparing for this week of bittersweet happenings. As she saved her money, she was excited. This being said however, Brittany's future is questionable. Her life is out of control. This is what I was so scared of and now it is coming to light. Brittany has made life hell for her foster family and now they truly see what I was talking about. Brittany does not want to talk to anyone. Instead, everyone is walking on eggshells wondering if she will blow like Mt Saint Helens. She needs help getting her plane ticket and she is burning her bridges and refuses to sit down and talk to anyone. She told me, "I don't like to talk to people." I told her that people are everywhere and she is going to have to learn to talk, bite the bullet and put herself out there. She just refuses.
I spoke with the foster mother yesterday and I feel her pain because I was there 6 years ago. Now she has asked me to find a place for Brittany to go as she will be 18 next month and she feels Brittany will take off once she knows she can and the guardianship is over. I am not sure this will happen, but I am working on some things here. Since Brittany has invited herself to just come back to live with me, I am in the process of finding a placement for her...group home or some transitional placement where she can learn daily skills. This is what I do for a living, so it is good I have people to talk to and some connections. Knowing this is what has to happen for her to survive just breaks my heart. She needs some intervention and it's up to me to do something now.
How ironic is my life...here it is back to me where it started. Life will never be the same again.
Peace for all of us
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Goobledy Gook
Wow...it HAS been awhile. There is a special entry coming soon. But until then...here is what I've been up to.
Christmas was both wonderful and oh so sad...I lost one of my best friends to that evil thing Cancer. I watched my youngest brother graduate with honors and distinction in Psychology from University of Iowa and spent an early Christmas with my dad and both my brothers...something that hasn't happened for a long while. Also spent Christmas with my grandmother and a whole bunch of relatives...thank god that isn't every year(the other relatives, the weird ones).
My daughter Brittany is flying in for a visit the end of March. I was planning on driving to Wyoming, but after speaking to her foster mom, I decided otherwise. She stated to me that she thought she should spend her own money for the ticket and if she didn't save it, then there is her consequence. And also that it would be better to wait until AFTER she is 18. I have been worried about something happening...another made up story as in the past. After what happened 3 years ago with her stating I sexually abused her on a home visit, I was not about to go through that again. But now that she will already be 18, she will have to face her own legal consequences should that happen. I decided the foster mom was right. And actually Brittany is very excited about flying in to see me, has saved her money, $250 so far. So I am taking the week off and taking her around to see family. My intention is to not take any chances for Cindy. It's sad to not trust my own daughter, but I cannot let my guard down.
Another good thing: I have really started writing this book regarding my experiences with Brittany. I found a journal I'd written in the thick of the mess.
AND Cindy and I celebrated our 2nd anniversary! It amazes me how much I fall in love with that woman every day. My family loves her and sometimes I think they love her so much they forget the nature of our relationship! LMAO It's fascinating to me. I told Cindy, "They don't even care that you are gay!" LOL
Work is good and though depressing when I received my W2 and saw I barely made over $10,000. But I could not leave, I love it so much. Gotta write and sell the ole book!
I'll be back soon!!!!
Christmas was both wonderful and oh so sad...I lost one of my best friends to that evil thing Cancer. I watched my youngest brother graduate with honors and distinction in Psychology from University of Iowa and spent an early Christmas with my dad and both my brothers...something that hasn't happened for a long while. Also spent Christmas with my grandmother and a whole bunch of relatives...thank god that isn't every year(the other relatives, the weird ones).
My daughter Brittany is flying in for a visit the end of March. I was planning on driving to Wyoming, but after speaking to her foster mom, I decided otherwise. She stated to me that she thought she should spend her own money for the ticket and if she didn't save it, then there is her consequence. And also that it would be better to wait until AFTER she is 18. I have been worried about something happening...another made up story as in the past. After what happened 3 years ago with her stating I sexually abused her on a home visit, I was not about to go through that again. But now that she will already be 18, she will have to face her own legal consequences should that happen. I decided the foster mom was right. And actually Brittany is very excited about flying in to see me, has saved her money, $250 so far. So I am taking the week off and taking her around to see family. My intention is to not take any chances for Cindy. It's sad to not trust my own daughter, but I cannot let my guard down.
Another good thing: I have really started writing this book regarding my experiences with Brittany. I found a journal I'd written in the thick of the mess.
AND Cindy and I celebrated our 2nd anniversary! It amazes me how much I fall in love with that woman every day. My family loves her and sometimes I think they love her so much they forget the nature of our relationship! LMAO It's fascinating to me. I told Cindy, "They don't even care that you are gay!" LOL
Work is good and though depressing when I received my W2 and saw I barely made over $10,000. But I could not leave, I love it so much. Gotta write and sell the ole book!
I'll be back soon!!!!
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